It has been a couple of days since Tim left. I know you guys are probably tired of hearing about him. But oh well. He is very important to me and I wish he was back in longview. I also wish that I was in Longview too.

I called the utility company, my land line company to cancel my services. I also put in a change of address in. I am getting more and more excited. I can't believe the day is getting closer to when I get to move. Amidst being excited about moving and being closer to tim, I am scared deep down. Scared that I am not going to be able to get a job. Scared that something will happen to Tim and I. But Tim keeps telling me that I should not be scared about what the future brings. That I should enjoy living in the present. I do enjoy the present to a certain extent. I enjoy my relationship with Tim. But I do not enjoy where I am at and my job. Sometimes looking forward to the future helps me to get through the present. Yeah when Tim does talk he says things that stick out in my mind and I listen. I am trying to stay strong for Tim. I do not know if he notices, but I hope he does.

I am heads over heels for Tim. Everyone probably knows that now and notices things like that. Everyone says the heart grows fonder with distance. I say thats true. Oh it is so true. My heart aches for Tim so much.

As each day passes, the day gets closer for his return to Longview. Each day, I am in a better mood. Not knowing does not help me. By my knowing if he is going to call or not going to call helps me. I have no idea if that makes any sense. But it is true.

I am trying to distract myself from school. I am always thinking of Tim and I can't focus on school. But I want to make him proud of me. So off I go to finish.